When you least expect it.....you're expecting.

September 2, 2010, I woke up feeling a little weird. I started thinking, and thinking more, I think way to much most of the time. Then I thought to myself, self you are 5 days late, and you're feeling really irritable, TIRED, you're a bottomless pit, and you are LATE. That magical word that can either turn your stomach into knots or make you so excited that you run to the store and grab 10 different tests. Well lucky for me, I had 2 clear blue digitals in my drawer. 

It was still pretty early in the morning so I grabbed the test, stuck it inside my shirt and snuck into the bathroom. Why did I stick it in my shirt? Well in order to get to the bathroom I had to pass the doorway to the living room where my mother was sitting. There was no way I was letting her see what I was carrying into the bathroom. So I did my business and the hour glass blinked about 5 times and there it was "positive". For a second I really did think I was seeing shit. I stared at that thing for probably 5 straight minutes, while my life flashed before my eyes. Still in shock I decided I could hurry and grab the other one and see what it says. Because for some reason I actually thought the 1st one was lying. 

So I made my way to my room, grabbed the other one, ran back to the bathroom with it in my right hand so mom still couldn't see and like 20 seconds later this one said "positive". Yes I sat there for a minute again thinking about anything and everything. But again my brain was still not convinced I was pregnant. So I went back into my room, called my friend Shawna (she lived like a block away) told her that I'm probably pregnant but I'm still going to Walmart to get a few more tests and going to her house. 

And of course the day I decide to shop for pregnancy tests, Walmart is ridiculously populated. This time I got the first response ones that have the neat lines. Why that matters, I don't know. Maybe I thought a different test would give me a negative result.  

As soon as I get there she is grinning from ear to ear, while I'm about to cry all the tears my body will allow. I take 2 more, positive, and positive. I think at that point I'm just pissed at God. Like he is pranking me or something...Why should he be to blame though. I'm the idiot who obviously wasn't being very careful. Well and the other person who helped in the matter.

My dear friend Cortney told me to go to Poky and we could talk about this little predicament. While i'm there I decide to take the last test for shits and giggles....but that was pointless. When you're pregnant, YOU'RE FREAKIN PREGNANT! I bawled, and laughed thanks to Cort. While I was there I had her call my brother Jason and tell him because I couldn't spit the words out. He reacted how I thought a father would react to that kind of news, I got quite the lecture but in the end he told me I would be fine.  Which I really appreciated, since the world was ending in my mind! Everyone reacted completely different than I thought they would (family wise).

September 3, 2010

I was getting ready for school. Normally I am somewhat talkative in the morning. But I kept to myself and like mothers do, my mom caught on to it. She asked me if everything was ok on the drive to school, then again on the bus to RFC, and I told her some BS story to settle her mind until I could find the balls to tell her the truth. Since she had once told me that if I got pregnant when I was not financially ready, I was, well....... dead. 

Sitting in computer class I realize I just need to do it. So I turn to her and before I can even get a word out she says "Chanelle what is going on, I know there is something wrong, don't lie to me." So I start to tear up and I tell her to get on the email chat. I'm pretty sure I just typed "i'm pregnant" and she turned to me with tears in her eyes and typed something back. I remember her saying that we would get through it but nothing else. After class she went down to the commons area outside, while I called my dad to tell him the news. His response was probably the most shocking. I think it was something like "Yeah I have been waiting for you to tell me this for awhile." Ha ha ha. I asked him to elaborate a little and he told me that I have always been excited to be a mom and he just wasn't surprised. Well, now I was about to become a mom and I was a far cry from excited. I was still shitting bricks because I still had to tell the two most important people in my life, my grandparents.

Well the day that I had decided to tell my grandparents was the day of the EISF parade. I remember them coming into the kitchen and saying hello and I just started crying and pretended it was something else. My grandma also brought her AMAZING chili and as soon as I smelled it, I wanted to puke. I was so pissed that this little baby I was growing inside me HATED chili. W T F. We went to the parade and came home and I told my mom that I just couldn't do it. She supported my decision and we waited until the family reunion on September 12th to tell them. Well there was no we. I still couldn't do it. We went for a walk and I started to cry.....this became a regular thing. So mom stopped us and said "Chanelle is pregnant". My grandma's face was priceless. She had a grin from ear to ear and she said "Your going to have a BABY!" I thought for sure she would start crying and say "Oh lordy, what are we gonna do with you?" Then I looked up at my grandpa and I see a tear in his eye and it slowly dripped down his cheek. I didn't know what to do. He wouldn't say a word. And to this day, I honestly don't know if he said anything at all. I just remember him pulling me in for a hug while we both sobbed our hearts out together.

It's funny how the two people I was most terrified of telling are the two people that would do anything for me and ESPECIALLY for Maycee. I am so very blessed to have the family that I do. All of my siblings supported me and made sure that if I needed anything, that I got it. My true friends stood by me, and were amazing when it came to gossip. Because obviously when this kinda news hits American Falls it gets turned into quite the story. I found out who I could and could not trust really fast. Who knew getting pregnant would bring out the worst in some people. But if it wasn't for Maycee, I would still have some not so great people in my life. I am forever grateful that God was not pranking me, and that he gave me my little angel. She is my world.